A happy new year with him.

Hello babe, just wanna say that I'm happy so much. It's been a 6months, eto parin tayo, walang pinagbago. Although circumstances and trials came. Just be strong ha? Pagpasensyahan mo na ako minsan kung topakin ako. Intindihin mo na lang. Happy and contented na'ko sayo, and i know the feeling is mutual. Happy ako na legal na tayo both side of our family, close ko mama mo, sana maging close mo din mama at papa ko. At walang problema sa kanila. Yun, tsaka i'm so glad na di ka nang chi-chix. Tama yan, makuntento kana sakin,and i don't deserve to be hurt. I miss the way you hugged me and kiss me on the forehead. SHZ :') Alam mo yung the best para sakin, nung makatabi ka makatulog, tapos yakap moko. Tas sabay tayong makakatulog. Tapos pag-gising, kikiss moko kahit di pa ako nagtotooth-brush. So rude, hahaha. Charot. Pero yun, alam mo kung gaano kita kamahal. Hope so na wag mo abusuhin. Tsaka ano, hiling ko lang, babaan ang pride ha? Ako nagiging kawawa pag nag-aaway tayo. Ako naaapektuhan ng sobra e. Tsaka, minsan, pag badtrip ako, wag mo na sabayan :'( Pag badtrip ako, biglang badtrip ka din tapos ako na yung mang-aamo? Damubs mo eno? Pero ayun, as i said, be strong ha? Sana wag tayo dumating sa point na magkakasawaan, ayoko mangyari yun. Happy new year babe! Sana tumagal pa tayo ng ilang taon. I love you with the love of the Lord ♥

♥

“I am not the first person you loved.

You are not the first person I looked at

with a mouthful of forevers. We

have both known loss like the sharp edges

of a knife. We have both lived with lips

more scar tissue than skin. Our love came

unannounced in the middle of the night.

Our love came when we’d given up

on asking love to come. I think

that has to be part

of its miracle.

This is how we heal.

I will kiss you like forgiveness. You

will hold me like I’m hope. Our arms

will bandage and we will press promises

between us like flowers in a book.

I will write sonnets to the salt of sweat

on your skin. I will write novels to the scar

of your nose. I will write a dictionary

of all the words I have used trying

to describe the way it feels to have finally,

finally found you.

And I will not be afraid

of your scars.

I know sometimes

it’s still hard to let me see you

in all your cracked perfection,

but please know:

whether it’s the days you burn

more brilliant than the sun

or the nights you collapse into my lap

your body broken into a thousand questions,

you are the most beautiful thing I’ve ever seen.

I will love you when you are a still day.

I will love you when you are a hurricane.”

— Clementine von Radics, “Mouthful of Forever"

Certainly true.

Sa relasyon natural lang na minsan nagkakaroon ng maliliit na away, dyan kasi kayo titibay. Ang compatible kasi na relasyon dapat hindi kayo pareho ng ugali, parang linya ng kuryente, hindi pwedeng parehong positive o negative, dapat magkaiba. Kaya kung ang babae natural na minsan may toyo at kumikitid, dapat ang lalake maging natural din ang pagiging understanding at maging malawak. Hindi yung bwisit yung isa, eh bwisit ka rin. La la ~

Leslie, the debutant.

Well, the best day ever that i've experienced. The Leslie's 18th bday. Sobrang enjoy, inabot na nga kami nang umaga. Sobrang saya kasi lahat kaming magtotropa/kakaibigan e magkakasama. SHZ, missed this ♥

Happy 6 months shalom.

@MAKATI. ( Photo Spam )

 Hi thurrr, with my lovely father. 

Sleep tonight - December Avenue with lyrics

Tell your goodnight to the light and close your eyes

There's a better place for you than to stay awake

You'll get closer to a paradise of dreamers in love

You'll get better like heaven has done something

So lay now

Hear me all through the night/I'll take over the night

There's no teardrop, You can count on me tonight

Or I'll stay up with you

Baby it's alright

I'll be right by your side

No need to cry out loud

Nothing to cry about

Baby it's alright

I'll be just by your side

I'll keep you on my sight

I'll never leave 'til you sleep tonight

Cover you with my arms and hold you tight

I'll be listening to your wonderful and calm little voice

I'll keep watching 'til my eyes burn down

I'll never sleep, I'll never leave, I'm gonna chase this dream tonight

MY HAIR :"(

 LONG HAIR. 

SHORT HAIR.

Diko alam kung magsisisi ako sa pagpapagupit ko, yung pinaghirapan kong pahabain, nawala na. Huhuhu, de joke. Although na di sya bagay sakin, happy parin ako. Mapapalitan ng fresh na buhok yung nawala, yung sira kong kulot, mapapalitan ng straight at itim na buhok. Kaso medyo matatagal pa ako magpahaba. Kaso panget tlaaga yung gupit e. Di bagay sakin. Ganito expected ko sa kakalabasan e (Picture sa baba), kaso FAILED. Iba naging style. @Z@R :3

Sabi ko sa sarili ko...

Pag nakapag aral ako ngayun, Aalisin ko yung BARKADA, Iiwas akong maglalalabas ng bahay. First priority ang STUDIES and FAMILY, gagawin kong inspiration ang LOVELIFE. Babaguhin ko lahat lahat, eto na siguro yung time para magseryoso. Iniyak ko na lahat sa LORD ng burden ko, sobrang hirap pala. Feeling ko napakawalang kwenta kong anak. Imbes na ako yung magtino, wala. Ako pa yung nagloloko at di nag-aaral ng maayos. Na-disappoint ko talaga ng sobra yung parents ko, ako yung babae e. Gustong gusto ko mag-sorry sa mama at papa ko sa lahat ng kamalian ko, sa lahat ng ginawa kong mali at di maganda. Pero feeling ko, wala na silang tiwala sakin. Inubos ko na :'( Pero pwede pa naman magbago di'ba? Kaya eto, di ko man sabihin sa papa ko na magbabago ako, mas mabuting ipapakita ko na lang. Gusto ko balang araw, maging PROUD sila mama at papa sakin. Ayoko masira buhay ko, gusto ko maging maayos. Ayoko magaya sa kuya ko. Mahal na mahal ko yung FAMILY ko. :'(

Gusto kong mag-sorry sa PAPA ko, sorry kung naging pasaway ako, sorry kung naging gahaman ako sa pera, sorry kung di ako nag-aaral ng maayos, sorry kung naging rebelde po ako, sorry kung nasira ko po yung tiwala nyo sakin, sorry po sa lahat. Hayaan nyo, lahat ng nawala sa inyo, ibabalik ko. Magiging proud kayo sakin balang araw. Yung dating ALEXANDRA, babalik po yan. I love you so much papa. :'(

(c) Strawberrytelle

Minsan kahit gaano na tayo nahihirapan, iniisip lang natin kung gaano na natin sila kamahal at gaano tayo nila napapasaya, parang gumagaan lahat ng mabigat, parang dumadali lahat ng mahirap. #RandomPost ♫

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SMILE.

Happy 5th.

Thank you for not giving up on me. I know there are times that you're about to leave and left me behind but still you're here. You're here to make me smile even if you're also hurt. You're here to make me happy even if at times, you just want to cry. You're here to make me feel loved even if there's nothing left for yourself. 

Hey babe, thank you for your patience. Thank you for giving me the last chance, this time I'll make it up to you. No promises babe, just actions. I love you.

Hi babe, here I am again.  Getting tired of me cause I've been doing weird a lot? Haha. Anyways, I appreciate it when you try to carry me even If I'm heavy. I appreciate when you try to make a joke when I'm about to cry (..believe me I'm trying not to laugh). I appreciate it when you pinch me in the nose to stop me from being naughty. I appreciate it when you're holding my hands when I'm tired of trying. I appreciate all of that, babe. I am. I love you. ♫

BIRTHMARK.

Sa mga di nakakaalam or nakakakita, may balat/birthmark talaga ako sa pisngi, oha? HAHAHAHA. Diko alam pero minsan, nahihiya ako sa balat ko, minsan naisip ko, sa dami ng tao, bakit ako pa yung nagkaroon ng balat. Biniyayaan ako ng balat, marami yan sa katawan ko, mga apat ata balat ko? Pero ayun, dati nahihiya ako sa balat ko kasi binubully ako dahil dyan, pero now, may ilang nagsasabi na bagay daw sakin, na kesyo eto yung asset ko, mga tropa ko, lagi pinagiintirisan to e, laging hinahawakan, pangpaswerte daw. Tapos sabi ng iba, kung wala akong balat, di daw ako maganda. Na ikinatutuwa ko naman! Hehehe. Wala lang, may ma-i-share lang naman!

Love of my life.

SYA YUNG LALAKING.....

Ang lalaking nagpapakain sakin lagi, tapos aasarin na ang laki laki daw ng tiyan ko, malamang! Lagi nya ako pinakakain ng maraming pagkain e. Ang lalaking walang ginawa kundi halikan ako sa noo. Ang lalaking lagi umaamoy ng ulo ko, kahit ayoko, malay mo mabaho. Hahahaha! Ang lalaking laging umaamoy ng kili kili ko, tapos sasabihin amoy MANDIRIGMA! Nag deodorant naman ako no, tapos walang amoy kili kili ko. Ang lalaking seloso, kahit hinde pinapakita, halata naman kasi hinde namamansin. Ang lalaking, walang ibang ginawa kundi asarin at pikunin ako, pag galit na ako, tatawa pa. @Z@R! Ang lalaking gusto ako lagi kayakap, alam nyo ba, kahit saan kami magpunta, laging yayakap sakin, kahit nakapila kami sa MCDO, nakayakap sa likod ko, kahit pinagtitinginan na kami, hahaha. Naiilang ako, pero wala e, sweet talaga sya, dun ako proud kasi di sya nahihiya yakap yakapin ako kahit saan. Sya yung lalaking, ang hirap amuhin, Promise! Sobrang hirap, kelangan umabot ng bukas yung away bago sya makipagbati. Kahit hirap ako, okay lang, wala e, ayoko mwala e, ganun ba ako kapasaway? LOLOL. Sya yung lalaking, panay kain, ang takaw pero di tumataba. Sya yung lalaking, walang pakialam sa kwento mo, babarahin ka ng "OTALAGA DAT SINAPAK MO", Kainis lang no? Pero pag may problema ka, ayun, dadamayan ka naman nya kaso nandun parin yung pagiging sarcastic nya. Ewan ko ba. Sya yung lalaking, lagi ako inuutusan, tila ako katulong. Magtuturuan pa kami kung sinu kukuha sa isang bagay, sinu magddrive ng motor, sinu bibili ng ganito ng ganyan. Odiba? Sya yung lalaking hilig mangagat sa balikat at sa bilbil, kahit masakit, kahit sarap nya sabunutan, nagpipigil ako. Hahahahaha. Sya yung lalaking mahal ko ♥

Ang lalaki, BOW!

ANG LALAKI: Hindi mahilig sa mahabang usapan. Hindi tumatagal sa seryosong usapan. Mabilis mainip sa isang sitwasyon. Hindi mahilig sa mahabang paliwanag. Mabilis uminit ang ulo. Nakakapagsabi ng hindi maganda minsan. Madalas tumingin sa mga babaeng sexy na dumadaan. Pero kahit ganun, ang lalaki pag nagmahal ng totoo:

Kahit hindi mahilig sa mahabang usapan, basta makausap lang babaeng mahal niya, kahit wala nang mapag-usapan, ayaw pang ibaba ang cellphone. Hindi man tumatagal sa seryosong usapan pero pag tungkol sa kanilang dalawa at sa kung ano mang problema nila ng babaeng mahal niya, gumagawa ng paraan para maayos agad at hindi na lumala pa. Kahit mainipin man pero pag kasama ka na, parang ayaw ka pang pauwiin kasi gusto ka pang makasama ng matagal. Hindi man mahilig sa mahabang paliwanag pero kung nasasaktan na, kahit ayaw mo pang makinig sa paliwanag na yun, mage-effort pa rin para mapaintindi ka. Mabilis man uminit ang ulo pero isang lambing mo lang, lumalamig na. Nakakapagsabi man ng hindi maganda minsan, dala lang yun sa init ng ulo. Pagkatapos ng away, hihingi pa rin ng tawad. Kasi para sa aming mga lalaki, dapat kami yung boss pero ang totoo, kayo pa rin yun. At kahit na madalas kami tumingin at pumuri sa mga nagagandahang babae dyan, bago kami matulog, kayo pa rin naman ang iniisip namin at kayo pa rin naman ang nag-iisa sa puso namin at pinakamaganda sa aming paningin. Alam niyo na girls? 

CREDIT TO THE OWNER.

RANDOM POST.

I, Alexandra Campaña, i am God's masterpiece. 18 y/o.
I collect books, i eat a lot, i play guitar and sing with it. 
Loves relationships, make friends and family is the priority.
I am one of the people who love the why of things.
I'm an emotional mess.
I have awful mood swings.

My hair always looks crap and weird.

My lack realization of how much other people care about me.

How dependent I am on others.

How often I feel stupid.

I'm just not that great at putting my feelings into words.

When I’m alone with my thoughts, I think of the perfect things to say. But when it comes to confrontation, pressure or the time to lay it all on the table; I get tongue tied and say the wrong things... sometimes I even say the complete opposite of what I intended.

I push people away. 

I complicate things. 

I hurt the ones I love the most. 

I cause drama for myself. 

I’m a burden to other people. 

I feel like I'm being a cry baby when I tell you my problems or that I have been through a lot.

I think too much.

I give good advice, but never know what to do.

I can never explain how I'm feeling, I just know what i feel.

I confuse everyone around me.

I dont understand things.

I'm never right.

I never know what I want.

I dont like showing my emotions.

I never make any sense.

I care too much about certain things.

I listen to other peoples minds and not mine.

I feel like everything I say is wrong, so decide not to say anything at all even when I know that I could be right.

I put a smile on my face as if I'm happy.

I bottle everything up, so when I try to vent it just sounds like im making everything up.

I actually don’t know how to avoid being clingy.

I can’t hold a grudge. I forgive too quickly.

I really don't know how to stand up for myself. I'm a pushover.

I cry at almost any little thing that get's me upset.

I get jealous easily.

HAPPY HALLOWEEN!

May namimiss ako.

Sa puro away na naganap, di ko pa rin maipagkakaila talaga na namimiss ko sya. Di ko alam kung malulugkot ako or matutuwa. Kulang na kulang yung araw ko kapag di ko man lang sya nakausap, or nakita. Gusto ko masanay na wala sya sa tabi ko kahit paminsan minsan. Mahirap kapag dumating yung time na magkakalayo kami tapos nasanay ako nandyan sya palagi, tila hirap na hirap ako. Sigh. Pero ayun, isa lang yung gusto kong sabihin. Walang magbabago sa love ko sakanya ♥ Hoping, na ganun din sana sya sakin.

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Sa bawat araw na dumadaan, ang daming nanyayare. Masaya, malungkot, nakakaiyak at nakakatuwa.

The answer to my prayers(:

Me: God, can I ask You a question?

God: Sure

Me: Promise You won't get mad

God: I promise

Me: Why did You let so much stuff happen to me today?

God: What do you mean?

Me: Well, I woke up late

God: Yes

Me: My car took forever to start

God: Okay

Me: At lunch they made my sandwich wrong & I had to wait

God: Huummm

Me: On the way home, my phone went DEAD, just as I picked up a call

God: All right

Me: And on top of it all off, when I got home, I just want to soak my feet in my new foot massager & relax. BUT it wouldn't work!!! Nothing went right today! Why did You do that?

God: Let me see, the death angel was at your bed this morning & I had to send one

of My Angels to battle him for your life. I let you sleep through that.

Me (humbled): OH

GOD: I didn't let your car start because there was a drunk driver on your route that would have hit you if you were on the road.

Me: (ashamed)

God: The first person who made your sandwich today was sick & I didn't want you to catch what they have, I knew you couldn't afford to miss work.

Me (embarrassed): Okay

God: Your phone went dead because the person that was calling was going to give false witness about what you said on that call, I didn't even let you talk to them so you would be covered.

Me (softly): I see God

God: Oh and that foot massager, it had a shortage that was going to throw out all of the power in your house tonight. I didn't think you wanted to be in the dark.

Me: I'm Sorry God

God: Don't be sorry, just learn to Trust Me .. In All things, the good & the bad.

Me: I will trust You.

God: And don't doubt that My plan for your day is always better than your plan.

Me: I won't God. And let me just tell you God, thank You for Everything today.

God: You're welcome child. It was just another day being your God and I Love looking after My Children.

Understanding a girl isn’t easy.

But it isn’t impossible. It just takes time, & it’s up to you whether or not you’re willing to take the time to get to know the girl or not. If she’s worth it, you would take the time to figure her out. & no, it doesn’t take a short period of time to know anything that’s worth knowing about a girl. It’ll take millions of conversations, thousands of of text messages, hundreds of phone calls, be around her for hours, days, weeks, months at a time, even during arguments will you find out more about her. Make sure you catch every detail, cause she might test you later on to see if you remember things about her, girls like to do that. The truth is, you might not ever understand her, but you’ll understand the things that matter. & if she matters, she’s worth understanding

- Trung Phan 

EWWW.

Ang lalaking walang alam, kundi asarin ako!

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Sigh. Mag-isa nanaman sa bahay :(

Thank you for this day!

Boredom.